Ever since I was a little girl I heard these words, and even sang them in church. Amazing grace is one of my favorite hymns, but because I never knew what it was like to be blind the imagery didn't quite reach me. I knew and understood how our sin is like blindness and it separates us from God. When we have a personal relationship with Christ, and He washes away that sin, the blindness is removed and we can see like never before. This illustration above has new meaning in my life.
I always wondered what life was like for the blind. A dear lady friend of mine was declared blind and all she could see was dark shapes. By the time she passed away she could no longer see anything at all. My aunt and uncle have similar issues, and they have lost most of their sight. We see those around us struggling with life, but we ourselves think we are invincible. It won't happen to me right? Well... my friends..we are not invincible. Life can throw things at you that you never expected. Are you ready and prepared mentally and spiritually for all that comes your way? Do you trust the Lord enough to get through it? I have always told the Lord I will trust Him no matter what. That doesn't mean I don't worry or get concerned. I am human just like anyone else, and I have my moments of weakness that turn others off. However, I like to face life and whatever it may bring head on. So about six months ago I began having major vision changes and It became difficult to even read a book. I have worn glasses since I was 11, so I am used to my vision being slightly off. I decided a trip to the eye doctor was in order just to make sure everything was okay. The doctor informed me that my eyes were fine and that I just had a focusing problem and should see a specialist. It seemed odd to me because my eyes did not forget to focus all of a sudden. So I ignored the problem as it is so easy to do, and went on my merry little way. Months go by and my eyes did not adjust to the new prescription. In fact they seemed to be getting worse. I couldn't tell if it was one eye or both, I just knew that my eyes were getting worse and I wasn't sure what was going on. Finally my mom decided I should go see a specialist as she was concerned I was having similar issues as my family members have had. After a trip to the specialist, I was completely blindsided (no pun intended) and was told that my optic nerve in my right eye had been damaged. They had also discovered issues with my veins that was cause for future concern. The damage was minor, but permanent. There is nothing they can do except to find a cause as to why this happened and to keep a close eye on the problem. As he told me, my right eye will always be diminished and there is no treatment to repair it at this time. The optic nerve takes what my eyes see and brings it to my brain. With that nerve damaged, glasses or no glasses, I am not able to see as clearly as I used to. There is something about knowing what is wrong that brings peace. Knowing that this happened, and that God stopped it from causing complete damage was encouraging. That is when these words from the great old song came to mind. When God heals us, he doesn't just heal a part of us, he heals our whole body. I could live in fear that one day I will be completely blind, because it is something I have to watch for. However, instead I trust God. Whatever His will is for my life I will accept it and I will learn to lean on HIM each and every day. I want to have the best attitude about this life that I can, because I know no matter what struggles I have it is only temporary. When I get to Heaven I will see the Lord in all His glory. I will hear the angels sing, and I will know that I am HOME. So whatever struggles are in your life, even if you have to give yourself one moment of pity, regroup and refocus your eyes on Him. The only one who knows where you are in this life. The only one who can heal the wounded, and give sight to the blind. He is right beside us, building us a future and a home in Heaven with Him.
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